Watching infertility turn into God’s Grace

I met this beautiful couple on a cold evening in October 6 years ago. We, my husband and I, had one so together and had no idea we were blessed beyond measure with him. As I got to know them, I learned that they had been together for almost 20 years and at this point, had been trying for a baby for twelve years. Over the next three years, Kelly and became good friends. We related on so many levels however, infertility and honesty about the feelings became the deal sealer for us. Even though our first child was a surprise, we soon found out that he was a miracle. Not just one, but both of my tubes were blocked. Well crap, how does one deal with that? I of course call my friend Kelly and say all the angry at God things I want to say and then let her put me back in like and pray over me. Then one day, God gave me a vision. It was her with a little girl. I told her, she told me to shut up, then we cried and prayed together. She proceeded to tell me a story of what her little girls name would be and why. From that moment on, I wouldn’t let her give up. The longer we went with me being annoying and asking her about it, time went by with not a single positive test. I saw this woman not only continue and have AMAZING faith like Hannah that she would be blessed, but be obedient in her calling, serve at church, and become a deaconess. How does one do that? When you are hurt and angry with God, instead of running, she ran to Jesus and served him even more. There was one night we sat at their table with other friends and they told us something very private. Out of that cane the word HOPE. We ALL walked away knowing t was God showing them to not give up HOPE. Fast forward about a year and a half and as I am driving down the road (yea yea, we all do it, don’t judge) I get a text message that reads “So, will you be available to do maternity pictures in February?”. I immediately called her IN TEARS and told her it was her fault if I wrecked my car. So here we are, 18 years later in their journey, and I am in tears posting this beautiful, WINDY maternity session. I am also currently awaiting the text that beautiful NAOMI GRACE is two hours from making her grand entrance into this world so I can grab my bags and head to the hospital. In the mean time, I will CL tiny to binge watch Grey’s Anatomy with he baby sitter and just reflect on how what one thought was an unfairness from God, was actually his GRACE waiting on the perfect moment to arrive.

What is your passion?

What is my “Passion”?

Despite joyful earthly man made definition of passion as "Any powerful or compelling feeling or emotion about a subject or a person, the Bible doesn't always use the word "passion" in the same joyful sense. The Bible uses the word passion to describe Jesus' suffering when he died in the cross. Lucky for us, it was the REASON he died that was the true passion. His love story- his love for each one of us and his desire to have each of us to spend eternity in Heaven with him. I was born with this passion to tell a story. My passion has always been artistic. I have always loved finding all the different artistic ways God's love can be expressed. In on of the darkest times of my life, infertility, and feeling like a failing Mom and wife, God drew out my passion to share his love story through others in photography. I love taking my passion and teaching others the artistic expression they have rooted in them through Christ. When I photograph a session, whether it be an engaged couple, a wedding, two becoming one in Christ, or a large family, my Passion is to capture the Love Jesus has planned for us through that human interaction. It's the little details, the way a Mom kisses her daughters’ cheek, the way a new husband hold his wife's hand, to the way a grandchild looks at their grandparents. Being a lifestyle, documentary photographer, I love to set up the moments and allow God to flow into a session. I tell a husband to tell his wife in her ear what makes her so amazing and what qualities he admires that God gave her. I love to tell a Mom to tell her child while pushing the hair out of their face why she feels blessed to be their Mommy. I love to capturing the Passion Christ has rooted in their spirit. My passion project currently is expanding my business to start mentoring "young" in career photographers. Really pull out of them the handiwork that God stored in their spirit and how he created them to catch on film so the client can see herself how beautiful they really are. The photography world is very Earthly, legalistic and political. My passion is to bring Jesus back to the center of it. To show That God knew how to design us to capture these special moments to SING HIS PRAISE, his Glory and his name. My passion is to help these "young photographers" to be who Christ created them, not what Social Media group says. To have meaning, Clarity, and fulfillment in this life through Christ. Kari Jobe's song has been on repeat in my spirit and mind through his journey, it's my anthem.... The only thing I want in life is to be known for loving Christ to build His church To love His bride And make His name known far and wide It is not fame that I desire Nor stature in my brother's eye I pray it's said about my life
That I lived more to build Your name than mine My Passion is to show that Jesus IS in art. After all, some of Jesus' most poignant moments was when he drew in the sand.

Please tell me I am not the only one.......

I just laid the baby down. This is my 3-hour window to message clients, send contracts, take deposits, and edit: tons and tons of editing. I glance around my unkept house and see laundry I just don’t have enough hours-in-the-day to get to. I sit at my computer and feel the nudge from God. “Spend time with me first, Jeanna.” With resistance from my brain going 90mph, I obey and turn on my worship music. This is when He reminds me my house is dirty because I am walking out my calling. About 4 years ago, I was called to become a photographer. I had ZERO idea what I was doing and this came tons of judgement spoken over me. “Does she not realize how awful these images are?” “This won’t last, she will give up.” I didn’t start with much support, but I had this burning in my soul to do it, and a relationship with God! Even hearing the negativity spoken over me, I kept pushing and praying. Finally, God nudged me to reach out to someone and she added me to a Momographer page on Facebook!! The problem was, now I spent hours scrolling through pages, comparing my work to others. I felt I was lacking. I got so lost. I forgot God had a different journey for them and me. I remember praying, “Ok, God, I surrender this ALL to you: my business and where I am supposed to go with it. Please use this as a platform to spread your WORD.” Then it hit me. In Ephesians 4 NLT, Paul says,

“4 Therefore I, a prisoner for serving the Lord, beg you to lead a life worthy of your calling, for you have been called by God. 2 Always be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other’s faults because of your love. 3 Make every effort to keep yourselves united in the Spirit, binding yourselves together with peace. 4 For there is one body and one Spirit, just as you have been called to one glorious hope for the future.”

God is calling me to help others. He wants us unified, lifting each other up and speaking truth that we are all unique and can contribute with what He has given us. Ephesians 2 says, “Grow in self-esteem, be rooted in being God’s handiwork.” Wow!!! He chose me to be His handiwork, to be confident and help others. So I am comfortable saying, God has called me to be a photographer and a mentor. To show others that their perspective, their composition, and their editing, are just as good anyone’s!!! That is how GOD designed you!! Stop comparing, be yourself, and get rid of the junk blocking you from YOUR CALLING! This is what God is reminding me also. But first, I guess I should fold those piles of laundry. Thank you, Jesus, for the fact that I am so busy, doing Your work, that my house is a little dirty.