I just laid the baby down. This is my 3-hour window to message clients, send contracts, take deposits, and edit: tons and tons of editing. I glance around my unkept house and see laundry I just don’t have enough hours-in-the-day to get to. I sit at my computer and feel the nudge from God. “Spend time with me first, Jeanna.” With resistance from my brain going 90mph, I obey and turn on my worship music. This is when He reminds me my house is dirty because I am walking out my calling. About 4 years ago, I was called to become a photographer. I had ZERO idea what I was doing and this came tons of judgement spoken over me. “Does she not realize how awful these images are?” “This won’t last, she will give up.” I didn’t start with much support, but I had this burning in my soul to do it, and a relationship with God! Even hearing the negativity spoken over me, I kept pushing and praying. Finally, God nudged me to reach out to someone and she added me to a Momographer page on Facebook!! The problem was, now I spent hours scrolling through pages, comparing my work to others. I felt I was lacking. I got so lost. I forgot God had a different journey for them and me. I remember praying, “Ok, God, I surrender this ALL to you: my business and where I am supposed to go with it. Please use this as a platform to spread your WORD.” Then it hit me. In Ephesians 4 NLT, Paul says,
“4 Therefore I, a prisoner for serving the Lord, beg you to lead a life worthy of your calling, for you have been called by God. 2 Always be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other’s faults because of your love. 3 Make every effort to keep yourselves united in the Spirit, binding yourselves together with peace. 4 For there is one body and one Spirit, just as you have been called to one glorious hope for the future.”
God is calling me to help others. He wants us unified, lifting each other up and speaking truth that we are all unique and can contribute with what He has given us. Ephesians 2 says, “Grow in self-esteem, be rooted in being God’s handiwork.” Wow!!! He chose me to be His handiwork, to be confident and help others. So I am comfortable saying, God has called me to be a photographer and a mentor. To show others that their perspective, their composition, and their editing, are just as good anyone’s!!! That is how GOD designed you!! Stop comparing, be yourself, and get rid of the junk blocking you from YOUR CALLING! This is what God is reminding me also. But first, I guess I should fold those piles of laundry. Thank you, Jesus, for the fact that I am so busy, doing Your work, that my house is a little dirty.